In the Book of Mormon, there is a record of a family who traveled from the Tower of Babel to the American continent. The family of Jared soon received their first glimpse of a vast, stormy ocean, having been required of the Lord to crawl into some mysterious air-tight vessels they were promised would carry them safely to a better place. As they gazed into the deep, moving water, they breathed the unfamiliar sea salt and felt the ice cold water lap at their feet. "What will become of our family?" "Can we do this thing that God requires of us?"

These were the questions we asked as our family stood on the edge of a new journey in February 2011. Before Cathi was diagnosed with aggressive breast cancer, we saw the waves of an unfamiliar storm brewing and felt the fear of anticipation. When the cancer was certain, our family was required to wade into the cold water, crawl into a mysterious vessel and trust the Lord would be in charge.

The family of Jared was given stones touched by the finger of the Lord that provided light inside their vessels "that they might not cross the great waters in darkness......and it came to pass that...(they) set forth into the sea, commending themselves unto the Lord their God. And it came to pass that the Lord God caused that there should be a furious wind blow upon the face of the waters, towards the promised land; and thus they were tossed upon the waves of the sea before the wind. And it came to pass that they were many times buried in the depths of the sea, because of the mountain waves which broke upon them, and also the great and terrible tempests which were caused by the fierceness of the wind. And it came to pass that when they were buried in the deep there was no water that could hurt them, their vessels being tight like unto a dish, and also they were tight like unto the ark of Noah; therefore when they were encompassed about by many waters they did cry unto the Lord, and he did bring them forth again upon the top of the waters. And it came to pass that the wind did never cease to blow towards the promised land while they were upon the waters; and thus they were driven forth before the wind. And they did sing praises unto the Lord; yea, the brother of Jared did sing praises unto the Lord, and he did thank and praise the Lord all the day long; and when the night came, they did not cease to praise the Lord. And thus they were driven forth; and no monster of the sea could break them, neither whale that could mar them; and they did have light continually, whether it was above the water or under the water." Read the rest: http://lds.org/scriptures/bofm/ether/6?lang=eng

This blog is the captain's log of our family's journey. It will serve to keep all of you updated on Cathi's condition but also be a place where I can express the lessons we are learning so that it might be a source of strength for others who are going through difficult challenges. We are certainly not unique in this regard. I hope to continue trusting in the light we have been given and to lead our family when we are encompassed by the dark ocean or tossed by its waves. We sincerely seek for your faith in asking the Lord to calm the water, give strength beyond our own and lead all of us of us to a better place.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Come What May, and Love It

It is ironic how past messages by our apostles and prophets now take on different meaning for me.  One talk in particular, is one I remember for its humor.  Elder Joseph Wirthlin, one of the twelve apostles, gave a talk in October 2008 entitled, "Come What May, and Love It."  At certain points of the talk, he had the congregation laughing so hard, we were wiping tears. 

This morning, as I prepare for this great Sabbath Day, I read the talk again...this time gaining profound insight with the simple principles he learned from his own experience with adversity.  One principle that is so relevant to me now, is the principle of compensation.  Elder Wirthlin said, "The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."

I know there are some who follow this blog that currently struggle with personal challenges that sometimes seem difficult to bear.  There are times when all the lights go out and we are left on our own to stop and contemplate the darkness.  Because I've watched and learned as Cathi and I have experienced this a few times recently, I want YOU to know that you cannot stop walking forward when all seems hopeless.  We came to this life to gain a better one.  I believe that, in these moments, we are making the most critical decisions of our lives.  These moments are our greatest opportunities to be tested and eventually compensated for whatever is being taken from us.  I know the Lord loves us because He has prepared a way for us to become like Him...and these moments are part of that journey. 

If you have some time, please read or watch Elder Wirthlin's entire message (particularly if you want a good laugh)...click http://lds.org/general-conference/2008/10/come-what-may-and-love-it?lang=eng&query=come+may+love.  If you have only 3 1/2 minutes, click and watch the short version below.